Zooooooooooo...m.

ZOOM!! REMEMBER THAT SHOW? IT USED TO COME ON BEFORE ARTHUR AND THEY'D DO ALL THESE NEAT PROJECTS AND STUFF.

Anyway, I WENT TO THE ZOO

AND TOOK ALL OF THESE PICTURES

and I have nothing to do with the ones that didn't make the stop motion cut, so... here, have a look:

Check out the eyes on those goats... they're totally like Naruto's sage eyes but blue. BAM. And no, my Naruto contact hasn't come in the mail yet. Sad. : (

Today, I: will eat tacos later, maybe.

I love: GOAT EYES!!! (creepy) Also, terrible Hugh Grant movies. And cake. And Buffy, the show. And Buffy, the character. And Spike. And cookies. And SHUT UP MICHELLE

Recent google searches: lots and lots and lots of camera stuff.

COLLEGE IN: 13 days holy son of a MOTHER

P.S. SARAH LYNCH THIS POST IS FOR YOU

the Quetzal

When I was younger, I used to be obsessed with many, many different things*, among which was a bird called the "Quetzal". They look something like this:

But as a six year old, I was under the impression that they were more like this:

I did countless projects on the Quetzal. Many, many of my hours were dedicated to filling powerpoints with pictures of the Quetzal** and learning their native habitats so that one day I, too, could live in the rainforest and own a Quetzal. My love for the Quetzal must've been hereditary; my mother is an avid birdwatcher, something which I often poke fun of her at for ("I saw fifty-two species of birds today!", she will say, while I trade a sardonic glance with my sister).

...This story really doesn't have a funny ending. I just really liked the Quetzal. They're pretty fucking awesome looking birds... I'll show you a real picture!! Maybe I'll even make you a powerpoint later.

(I don't know what's with the scarf on the left. Just ignore it.)

Today, I: Went to a dinner party. That's really about it... OH, I also learned that all the kitchen sinks in our building will have it's water shut off pretty much indefinitely, so we'll have to wash our dishes in the bathroom and fill the water pitcher from the bathtub. Ahh, ghetto life. xD

I love: Really, the only thing that comes to my mind is pretty creepy, so I'm just not going to say it and you can all be deluded into thinking that I'm sane.

Recent google searches: "Kanye West diamond teeth", "literal total eclipse of the heart", "quetzal", "pokemon leaf green rom" (ohhh yeahhh, pokemon games and the quetzal. That's childhood right there).

On a side note: for anyone who was paying attention, I suddenly realized that BEDA would be a bad idea for many reasons. I'm not quitting because I'm lazy, though, and that's what really mattered here.

*nothing has changed...

**The same goes for the Ocelot and Pomeranians.

Love, maybe. Probably not.

I'm about to get really serious and personal. I'll try to offset it with images, because I know that hardly anyone is particularly interested in what I'm about to say.

The other day, I was asked if I had "ever been loved someone". Apart from making fun of the question asker (and being slightly unsure of what he was actually asking), I answered: yes, I believe that I have; regardless of whether or not he meant if I'd loved or been loved.

It was a cheeky answer, because I purposefully misinterpreted it. Almost everyone has loved, at some point or another, whether it be their parents or friends or pets or something as simple as an article of clothing. But the real question was whether or not I'd been in love, with reciprocated feelings.

...To which I've got an exponentially longer answer.

The gist of it: I don't actually know.

There's no way I could answer for the boys in question, so I'll just go ahead and skip that part.

As for myself, there are times in which I say, "definitely, yes", but I'm really not experienced enough in that field to justify myself. I have, however, felt a pull so strong that I've devoted months of my life to it. I've cared so much for a guy that I would've been there for him no matter what. I've even smiled too much to keep kissing properly, and sometimes I feel like that's about as in love as it gets.

But I also know that love comes with the kind of vulnerability that causes heartbreak. In the closest I've felt to love, I didn't give enough of myself away to really feel the loss--and how could I have been in love if I didn't even care enough to cry when it was over?

So... after that, I suppose I think my answer is no. But really, I'm more than happy just sitting here squeezing the juice out of this aloe vera plant for the time being. It's very entertaining.

Today, I: Looked at fish, painted the hell out of a wall... ate a sandwich... almost contracted cancer... the normal stuff.

I LOVE: fat and long bunnies...

College in: WHAT A STUPID SECTION

Recent google searches includes: "kitten in mouth japanese girl"

p.s. I've really got to stop talking about such personal things on the internet. The last time I did this, it ended very badly and I'm still terribly embarrassed about it.

Evil Dust Bunny of Whimsy

One of the main reasons why I like to blog is because I feel like it's easier for me to define myself here, in my writing, than it is for me to do so by ambling around spewing thoughts all day. Writing allows me to catalog my personality. Essentially, it helps my mind evolve from a colorful dust-bunny of whimsy to an easily readable list.

The only problem with this, however, is the way I try to define myself isn't always me (see: easygoing and productive). I try, to the best of my abilities, to say what I truly feel... However, people aren't constant, and I'm a prime example of that. One day I'll feel one way, and the next I'll think something completely opposite. It's one of the reasons why I always have the worst relationships.

I think I'm getting better, though; I'm trying not to try to be anything. Just an open effort to be fully myself. Well... minus all the creepiness. I have to make a conscious effort to keep that on the DL.

I think I'm getting better at it, too! I almost appear completely sane to people that have never met me before.

∫: lol, that came up when I tried to bold.

College in: 21 days, I think? Or maybe it's 19. Anyone know when classes start? :s

Today, I: Ordered THREE THINGS online!! And read my SLR camera's entire manual. And drove to Ottumwa to go shopping for dorm sheets. I AM SUPER PRODUCTIVE TODAY LIKE x3!!

I LOVE: MIKA, again. Listening to his albums on repeat. He's addictive, like sugar and candy and hot french men and yaoi. Which he essentially embodies, except technically he's lebanese...

Recent google searches: ALL of them are about Naruto. Seriously... all of them.